((((((Ryan))))))))

Ryan...I'm not sure about you, but I use SI as a my main coping mechanism...well actually it is my only real coping mechanism.

So if you're going through rough times and you take away someone's way to cope...well you can imagine when things pile up...well the load gets mighty heavy.

My I remember reading on an SI site that sometimes it's not always the best thing to go cold turkey in times of crisis...to ween off.

Especially depending on certain cases. I talked to my T about that ...and at the time my situation I was in control so he said to stop beating myself up as well.

I don't know if this helped or not, but the expectations you are setting on yourself along with just trying to get on your feet is a lot. Then if you "slip" you have an awful lot of guilt.

That guilt is a lot to burden. I just know how that feels and I hope you won't be so hard on yourself in light of all your going through.

Sorry for the long reply.

Hope you feel better soon.

Take good care (((Ryan)))
Eva