Pink, at the risk of sounding cliche, the dead that we love are never ever truly gone. I fully believe, without any doubt, that he IS proud of your school work. Not a moment goes by that he is not with you in your heart. The physical body is no longer here, but the love you share IS REAL and is with you in every moment. Never deny that. What you have - you can share with him. As long as you have him in your heart, he can never be closer. I know it is terribly painful, i miss Austin SOOO much it is a physical ache. But I also know that when I think of him (which is no longer every single second of each day because it has now been 6.5 years) he is a breath away, sharing that moment with me. I missed him so very much yesterday, I climbed over a pile half my body in height to get to his picture and touch his face. But I also felt him touch my tears.
kiya