I have been writing in the bipolar forum as i thought i might be suffering from that, but my pdoc gave me a book about low selfesteem instead. At first i felt angry and confused but then i read it through and started to see things in a different perspective..
All of a sudden many memories came back to me and i am writing it all down as it comes to me.. I had to look at myself as i would someone else, otherwise i couldnīt see the problems that were just in front of me.
I now realize that there is many reasons why i am now someone who is suffering with VERY low self esteem and self worth and its quite hard to suddenly be able to see this very clearly.. I guess that i can now start working on getting better but it just seems so hard as i have always been like this. That means changing my whole personality.. very strange thought.
Anyway i wanted to say hello to you all and look forward to writing with you
from Lone