I wanted to say wow that totally makes sense and you really have the right words when you talk about being in a cave and now your out of it . I feel like that explains me in a sense over the last year , you have changed and so have i and really it is a relief . It is like evolving for the better at least in one aspect when i never thought that was possible. Of course i have so many other things wrong that i dont know how to fix , maybe they will just kind of work themselves out over time.