Sometimes I'm so depressed, other times I'm okay. My lows are low but my highs aren't that high so I don't think I'm bipolar, I just have to get to a doctor so I can stop worrying about it. But it's not that easy for me to get help, to admit to everyone that I've failed and there's no way I can keep it a secret. i almost gave in the other day but I chickened out. I need some motivation, I lack it lately.