Pink,
I appreciate how you refrained that for me. Yes, it was me who felt that way. Whether she did it deliberatly or not I don't know. The problem is by the time I go in to see her next, the past session is gone and I don't follow through with the emotions that I felt from the previous one.

I have a hard time with contfrontation, always have, I just let things slide and adventually they become history. I think.... well.... just one more thing in life to get over. I can be very passive and I hardley ever, ever show anger. Perhaps thats why I don't like confrontation because I don't know how I will react. Its not that I don't feel anger, or in my case more frustration, I internalize it rather than release it. I know thats bad but its what I have done my whole life and its sort of worked.

I would like to learn how to release it but I have always viewed people yelling, arguing ect as intrusive. I am very uncomfortable with it because thats exactly how my dad was growing up and I promised myself I would never hurt people like that. I can be particulary oversensitive to others feelings while I smother my own, thinking I can handle it better than them.
I know I need to learn to share feelings like this with my T, not the easiest, 11 months later I am still uncomfortable in therapy and she's not a bad person.

Hangingon