This is a very interesting topic. I also have a hard time looking into my Therapists eyes. I try to look at her when she is talking but its not easy. When I talk, I look down and play with my fingers, I am lucky to give her an occasional glance.

I like some of you feel like she will see through me, you know recognize that I am crazy. I have told her that I think I am crazy, she assures me that I am no where near that.

I think the other reason I have a hard time looking in her eyes has to do with the whole connection thing, I mean I want that so bad but I also fear that connection because I fear the whole having to part in the end. I also feel that if I really look in her eyes, I may just lose it.

Maybe the whole thing is the fear of having her see the real me, the one who is not as strong as I pretend to be.

Hangingon