Ah, but it is my problem because they'll be staying at my house.

But, yes, there is a lot of "giving" involved - "giving up" my 'druthers. With little in the way of immediate return. Children are not a blessing in my reality. They're a liability, an avoidable tragedy. I'm been working with my T on this, but we're not making headway fast enough. We did Halloween, and by the end of the evening I was worn through. It was a fun night, but there was too much of it. Too much noise, too much whining, too many toys, too many cartoons. Too much "kid stuff" with nothing for me.

Yes I KNOW that's selfish!!
I love Jon enough to try, and he's been wonderfully patient and kind with me. I just don't think I'll EVER feel the way he does about kids. My issues go WAY back...I'm trying. I'm really trying...I may have to lock myself in the bedroom.

You guys make this sound like it's easy or that I should know what I'm doing. I don't get it.