*hugs*
You're not wrong to mistrust others.. but sometimes its better to let them in. It really depends. I generally just don't trust people. Lately I've been forced to open up more than I want to to my friends, some have come through with flying colors, others have failed miserably, and others are simply in between.

I'm sorry about your bf, your brothers and sisters, that people unload their crap on you but don't take the time to take your crap on their shoulders too. That happens to me a lot to, although often it's my own fault because I simply refuse to unload my crap on others. I dunno what it is for you.
I haven't seen you much around the boards, but it's nice to meet you

I really hope things get better, and that once your pity fest is over you might feel a little bit better and see a light at the end

loads of hugs,
~turquoisesea