Sannah,
I like what you said about denying my needs for others, as I am sure lots of people on here do.
Growing up, I was the second eldest, the eldest was a boy. For the first 10 years of my life my mom and dad were alcoholics and did drugs as well. There foolishness landed us in foster homes twice. I was determined to take care of my siblings. When I was 10 my mom stopped both completely, for my dad it took alot longer. I had to take care of my younger siblings alot, from a very young age. I enjoyed it, I loved my siblings and did my best to look out for them.

I guess it's part of my nature in a sense to do that because I did it for so long. I don't look at things like that as a burden. Yet, I do deny my needs alot for others so in that sense its not healthy because I won't say anything when I am bothered, I just go on with life, while it all builds up in side.

I realize since I started therapy that is getting harder to hold things in. It's causing me took look inward much more and I am not always happy with what I see. It's making me to dang sensitive and for someone whose been strong for so long it s*cks.
Sometimes I think therapy is making me worse rather than better

Hanging on