Hi Coper. As a person with DID, I am often accused of lying and also feel like I can't speak any truth quite frequently. Currently my mother is not on speaking terms with me because she is sick of my 'lies'... this is mostly over a very specific and recent incident that I have no knowledge of, that she thinks I should remember. Unfortunately the simple fact is I just don't.

Apart from incidents like that, I do often feel like I am lying and that nothing I say has any truth to it. This is because what might be real and true for one part of me is directly contradicted by another, and those experiences again contradicted by yet a different part. Finding truth to give to others feels like an impossiblity at times.

It might be helpful if you can remember that all the things your SO says and does that seem like 'lies' are real for him on some level. Perhaps they are just different versions or interpretations of the truth.... personal truths viewed through different needs and defences and emotional states. Keep in mind that the level of dissociation and amnesia as well... different states may or may not have access to the knowledge and experiences of others.

I understand how confusing it must be at times. Sometimes I am painfully aware of just how confusing and contradictory I must come across to others as well.