I have a daughter, who will be three in January. Her mother an I had a complicated relationship and I didn't see either of them since she was born. Her mother and I patched things up earlier this year, but she died in August. She wanted me to raise our daughter once I was in a financial situation to do so, and my daughter has been living with her parents since then.
I now have the finances to do it, and have made plans for her to live with me early next year. But now, I am wondering if it is the right thing. She has a serious stomach disorder and has been hospitalized several times this year. I myself have several health issues, but it is mainlly my mental state that worries me. For a long time I never dealt with it properly. I have been the last months however and things have improved. I have an excellent job and can usually manage things. But there are times when just crumble, and I can barely take care of myself. How am I supposed to take care of her if that happens?
I want to be with her and be a good father to her more than anything. But I know it's more important that she live in a stable situation, and I have to wonder if I can give that to her. She's been through so much already, the last thing I want is for me to cause her even more grief. Her godparents are great people, I know they be great with her. But she is still the most important thing in my life, and I desperately want to find a way to make this work.
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