I relate to how you feel about anger and about not being allowed to be angry when growing up, but anger is a normal emotion that we all have. Your situation sounds like it would cause anger--wanting your generosity returned, having to make last minute arrangements for your kids. Your coworker was being difficult and maybe wouldn't have realized her request made things difficult for you if you hadn't let her know how you felt.

Maybe Paxil has numbed you emotionally, I don't know. But good to have all our emotions available to us, I think.