Wow, reading this is so validating to me. When I was little I used to make up events too -both to fit in, and to create some sort of "reality" for myself and those around me that would match up with what I was feeling, since I couldn't talk about what was *really* going on.

I felt a lot of guilt about that for years, until I started therapy and started talking to T about it. Now I make an effort to be completely honest all of the time, especially with T, and it's not easy. But it feels better.