Good luck to you, Gracie.
I lost my first T in August, too. His partner was hit by a car and killed and therapy stopped ... suddenly. I started seeing a new T a little while ago. It was hard making the adjustment to a new T and despite being able to rationalize why T1 had to stop practicing for a while (he has a small child), it still brought up a lot of issues for me. It was difficult, but not impossible, to transition to T2. You can do it. And this community is here to support you.