ive been in a real bad place for a little while now. i am acting as if. i just dont feel any better. i see that things are getting better. but, it doesnt feel like anything has changed. my meds were changed this week. i cant eat, cant sleep, cant think straight, and continue to have bad thoughts. i have called hotlines this week and really need to si.i saw my social worker thurs and was too afraid to tell her everything. she wanted me to think about the partial hospitalization program. i know i need it but dont really want to do it. im very tired of being this depressed. ive never been this depressed. i feel like giving up.