csc, that was a very nice post. I do agree that life has its ups and downs, and that the downs must be there for a reason. I'm not religious (I'm not anti-religious, either), but I believe that the world is rational in one way or another, even though it may not seem like it.

silver_moon, it will be okay. It really will. I've had some rough times lately...not as rough as you by any stretch, but rough nonetheless. But when we don't know what to do, sometimes the best thing to do is to just keep on going. Things will turn around. You have many friends here happy to support you. It will get better. You'll see.