Puffyprue, you are in so much pain right now, you cannot think rationally. If you were able to think through the pain, you would know that you would be missed if you were to die. I don't know things about your life, but I know you've touched enough lives here to be missed. Please don't think about dying--it's not the only way for the pain to go away. It isn't. It's the quickest, but you asked earlier why God doesn't just take you home. The decision has to be His, not yours. No one asked to be born--it's a gift, believe it or not. A gift to the rest of the world that you were born. If you were not born, you would not have been able to help us here. If you were to die, you wouldn't be able to touch the lives of others down the road. That's great, you're helping others, but what about you? In helping others, you help you. No one knows why we suffer the way we do. All I know is that when we get through the suffering we will be stronger, happier, smarter, healthier. Because we will get through it. And when you are tired of fighing, stop. You don't have to have to always fight. That's what we are for. We will support you, hold you, comfort you when you can't fight anymore and just want to be. Let us be your support to help you. But remember, there is only so much we can do; when you are feeling truly like you want to die, call a crisis line, call 911, call someone--anyone. Because you are wonderful, you deserve to live and get through this pain to see happiness.