your hugs are always appreciated gimme
marci... thank you I'm just stuck down that hole again and can't seem to drag myself out. To be honest, I wasn't thinking about J when I wrote that post either... I'm beginning to accept what's happened... not hurting any less, just accepting. Trying to keep reminding myself that I wouldn't be happy being with him in the long run (because of issues with his family, trying to think of other reasons too) now I am thinking about him. As much as it hurts I just need to block him out of my life.
Thank you digdug
Anyways, it's the being lonely that's hurting me most now... big part of depression in anyone I guess? I just miss having friends, miss having people to talk to, share things with, laugh with. I just don't understand. The hurt never goes away...

I'm so thankful for my friends on here... really would be struggling A LOT if I didn't have you guys.