Let me ask you this....Do you think you feel out of place today because
of what happened in your childhood???

You did mention you don't remember a whole lot of your childhood. I have
had issues of feeling out of place because of my childhood and it took
me a long time to feel better as an adult due to my childhood.

Do you think this could be related???

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