Okay this is hard to post now.....but I have been here long enough and comfortable and reading what others are posting I figured I would jump out there.
Since being sexually abused I have A LOT of sexual problems. YES I do talk to my T about them, it is hard but I do.
My hardest thing is......... I am female and when I am around men I look at them and wonder what they look like without clothes...sick huh? no matter the age I do it......wonder what it would be like to have sex with them....ugh cant stop these feelings....T says it is because I was introduced to sex at such a young age and that men and sex went together and I learned nothing else....but that does not make the feelings go away.....
I went to a meeting the other day with my hubby and the speakers were up front talking and some were nice looking and I could not focus on what they were talking about I was thinking dirty things...........I am SICK............any help here..........anyone else do this....I need to just know I am not alone...........please tell me I am not