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Originally Posted by silver_moon
I'm not diagnosing myself and I know none of you can either, I need to talk to my doc. But, how do you know whether you are depressed or bipolar?
I know the main characteristic of someone who's depressed is low feelings and the main for bipolar is a mixture of feeling depressed, but also manic etc
But how do you define the manic part? Lately I've been so confused 'cause at times I can be really high and I feel buzzed, but I don't feel like I'm 'here'... but it comes as quick as it goes and for the main part I'm deeply depressed.
I don't really know how to describe the way I feel... but I know that you can feel happy sometimes when you're depressed... but the way I feel isn't happy?
I don't really now how to explain, my heads all over the place and nothing has seemed to sink in at all lately... think tonight's the first night I've ever really been able to think about anything, to feel half normal.
Could anyone just explain the manic part of bipolar for me (I am going to speak to my doctor about how I've been), just be nice to get some insight?
Thanks,
Molly
(oh... and I know you can't use this as a diagnosis, but I got 53 in the bipolar quiz on pc)
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Hi Molly, it is confusing. My mania was like no sleep but so tired at times. Then i would go 2-3 weeks of being so buzzed, so clear. I was a train on a mission. I tried to apply quantum theory to environmental issues, I saw auras around trees, I tried to fix the entire department where I worked because of staff issues. (They were very understanding) I worked for the government in a hospital. I was doing a science degree and writing 2000 word essays in 6 hours and getting good marks. Then I would crash and sleep for days, cry alot, my intelligence would leave me and I was a horrible person I did not know. I did not have the compulsion to spend money on one of evry colour so everyone is different. I was diagnosed with Bipolar type 2 and I am on lithium and olanzapine. I was also diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder 15 years ago. BPD can mirror symptoms of Bipolar so it took a while and my great psychiatrist to finally treat me for it. Don't give up. If your doc is good you will come to a diagnosis that sits well with the symptoms and then you can be treated. Good luck!