dissaciation is when you arent in yourself. when you cant see from your prospective. when you dont feel like your in your body. i dissacociate for hours. sometimes i dont even know if im really here. i sometimes think i am permently gone from my body. im scared to go back. i have panic attacks when i do go back. its kind of hard to explaine. but its like when lets say, your making pasta, cause i just made pasta. you made pasta, your watching yourself make pasta, not from your bodys point of view, like um your moving and all but your gone. your in the clouds. your aware, but up in the clouds.