Well, I ran into one today...obviously I didn't see the darn thing or I would have made a detour.
It's not any one thing, nothing spectacular happened, there were no harsh words from anyone including ones to myself...
My energy/itty-bitty peace of mind/focus and determination started melting and I felt powerless.

Powerless and tired and don't want to hear any crappy platitudes I know there will be days like this, times of feeling like whale poop, times of sitting on the pity pot.

I also know there are times when the mask of, "I be just fine, thank you for asking" gets very heavy and I want to give myself permission to weep, eat chocolate, bawl, drink a can of Hershey's syrup, did I say cry?

Look between the bits of humor and you will see a lady who truly is tired. Right now, and I know it won't last forever...it better not or I'm going to be one mad unique antique.
Why life caught up with me today is something I haven't figured out yet.
Maybe I don't have to, either. I can easily get stuck in analysis paralysis when it comes to times like this.
Perhaps I need to let myself be worn out and take care of myself
Aha! So bits of truth emerge. I haven't been taking care of myself the way I normally do, and I'm stressed. NSS
Being worn out is a lovely way to tell everyone IRL to take care of your own problems because I'm too tired to do it.
Being selfish, I am. I don't want to hear their complaints.
I can listen, but I cannot solve...
This sounds so crude, but I'm not known for being nice when I'm stressed--did ya ever want to shake the bejesus out of someone who is stuck in Woe-Is-Me for the 405th time and it's the same problem? Ok, I'm rotten for feeling that way.

I'll feel better tomorrow. Hopefully I will sleep this night without having my usual weird nightmare--I'm having a fight with gnomes who are trying to trip me and bring me down.
Pretty telling, I think, about what's been going on IRL.

Cap
hurray! finally time for a pain pill...
it's going to be awhile before a surgeon cuts on me again