If only we understood why He has us here, why we suffer. Instead, we have to live until He calls us home. Your suffering seems so much larger than what you can handle, but if you believe He loves you, do you think He would allow you to experience it if you couldn't handle it? Tomorrow it may not be better, or the next day; but it will slowly get better. Slowly. You have to believe and work at it. Please please please don't believe people that say you aren't worth it. You are worth every bit of air you breathe, every heartbeat. You are worth it.