you may think that this shouldn't involve my self-esteem....but it does.....a lot of you know about the problems that i've had with my real estate sale in New Mexico...i received a letter last week from my atty saying that the bank wouldn't release my mortgage unless i signed an agreement to not seek damages from them. i refused to do that and they have now agreed to release my mortgage. i don't know what the frigging bankruptcy atty is going to do...my self-esteem is at a real low point. i keep thinking that if i had been smarter, wiser, faster, NOT BI_POLAR, none of this would haev happened. i'm taking a real beating from myself. i'm going now to pick up the paperwork for nursing school, but i'm scared to death that i won't be able to get in. i make a sorry candidate for a nurse when i can't handle my own life.......how can i help others????????? long, long sigh.................