I start conversations, but somehow they always end up back to me no matter how hard I try to divert it. I hate attention on me. But it's hard to be comfortable with myself when I have a family full of successful lawyers and VPs and entrepreneurs...it's itimitdating and embarrassing. I don't want them to know that I am failure, so I beat around bush and try to take the attention off of me. It also stems from growing up in parents who didnt take much interest in me ( i dont know if you've read any of my posts in the PC forums about it). No one ever cared about how my day was or how I was feeling. So I spent most of my time with my twin sister or by myself feeling completely unwanted. I'd go days without talking to my parents or seeing them (i think almost 6 days had gone by when I was keeping track of the days) and we were all living under the same roof. We are just disconnected. And I have carried that with me into my adult life. When I went to college I was thrown into a completely different world than I was used to and everything just spiraled. I dont know. Im just confused.