Hi just an update/summary of my situation (I'm basically grasping for answers here)

Ever since a month and seven days ago when my "fear of rabies" hypochondria hit me (a bat flew over my head at night) my level of anxiety has waxed and waned. Some days I'll wake up feeling a bit chilled and jittery but then feel somewhat better as the day progresses only to have my nerves start acting up really bad again and have diarrhea or soft stools (sorry, gross I know).

Then for a week or more I had this "lump-in-throat" sensation which drove me nuts and made me think I DID actually have rabies which in turn, caused me to panic even more. It got much worse after I read an email about rabies and for a day or two I had trouble even swallowing food (which brought on even more panic) but now the throat probs have gone away for the most part (finally!). My guts have been upset from time to time too and I don't know if this is due to having a disease -or- because of all the constant stress, worry, anxiety and tons of meds I've been on (ie; Cipro XR, Lorzepam, Xanax, Nyquil, etc). Can even subconsious fear cause you to have anxiety?. I mean, even if your not trying to think about it?.

The pollen count is extremely high here too and my eyes go from being very dry (and my face feels "tight") to being very watery. My nose is always plugged up too. Sometimes I get some stringy clear goop that I'm able to cough up. I'll be honest, this really sucks )-:.

I have also noticed that sex is difficult and that even if I'm feeling extremely "frisky", I can "get it up" but it won't stay up and when I finally "do the act", it just makes me feel exhausted and dizzy and does'nt feel like it normally does. Sorry for using the word "sex" and I hope I hav'nt offended anyone but I need so badly to get all this stuff off my chest.

I had a stiff neck and shoulder after surgery and I slept in all kinds of awkward positions which made me even more sore but then I read that with rabies, you can also get a stiff neck so this made me panic as well - even the the neck probs are'nt nearly as bad as they were a week or so ago. However, I do get these little pin-prick sensations in my back or neck every so often (maybe once a day) and that really freaks me out.

Anyway, does all this sound like anxiety?. Can it wax and wane throughout the day - geting better and then worse and last for months (off and on)?. My whole face feels like someone rubbed fiberglass all over it. My eyes are watering, my sinuses are stuffed up, I just feel like crap and every sensation I get, I start freaking out really bad.

Thank you for listening (just wanted to share)