(((((((((((((purple)))))))))))))
No need to be sorry... And I understand how it may feel like it's never going to change, no way my life will ever get any better and if it does something else will just happen... I do understand. And know how hard it is/can be.
Would you like to talk some more about what it is that is bothering you?
There's usually always someone on here who will be able to give some good advice.
Take care,

Blue