GG, my anxiety fluctuates too. One minute I'll be fine and the next minute I'll feel like i grabbed an electric fence and my entire body is buzzing inside and my fingers and toes get ice cold.

The crisis hotline is going to know my life story inside and out before I even meet the social worker tomorrow morning, and I just started talking to them last night around 10:30. LOL

Not to make light of your situation. But I think sometimes we do have to laugh at ourselves to see that we're probably making things seem worse than they are, and when they're already bad enough, that's a lot of added anxiety we're heaping on ourselves.