For the past few months I've been hiding around on these forums. I said I was leaving, but I didn't. I think you all would know the magnetic attraction of this website.

So, I'm coming out honestly. I've been a member at PC since May 2004. I've had 3 names, one of which I change just recently. In order I had: loser_child, Sleepy_Head, starbright, and I just changed Sleepy_Head to SpecialK. I've ran into a few disagreements with certain things, and I'll leave and come back as something else. Excuse me if it's not so easy for me to "just forgive and forget" as one member put it to me.

Now, I've had the Doc retire "loser_child" a long time ago. Yesterday I made a request that "SpecialK" also be deleted, and as soon as I am done here I will make the same request for this name.

Don't take things personally, if you do, sorry. I think I've really grown apart from this site or this just is the type of community for me. I haven't felt like I've been supported, except for a few select threads, and thank you for that. What I've never understood, though, is how 2 different people could be calling out for help on similar matters, but one person would get 3 replies, while another could get 3 pages of replies. Or maybe I'm just being critical or just plain selfish. I don't know, you tell me.

As much as I hate to sound like my mother, this site feels very clique-ish to me and I don't feel like a part of any of it. I don't feel like I've made very many friends here at all. Of course changing names doesn't help, but I used each name for a few months at a time. Some new members seem that they are the highlight of the site within weeks. I've been here months at a time and no one knows me. Maybe I'm just being silly.

No matter what, I'm saying good bye. For those of you I did get close to, I'm sorry, but you know how to find me if you like. Other than that, I just want to say sorry for those that feel offended or hurt in anyway, that wasn't my purpose. Insult me as you like, replyas you like, whatever. I won't be around to read them.

One last word, this site has changed a lot in almost the past year, I'm not sure if it's been much for the good, but maybe just an overwhelming amount of people calls for different rules. Don't mind me, I won't be around much longer.

Nice knowing ya..
~Kayleigh