lifelesstraveled,

I have learned to not feel guilty about what I choose not to tell my therapist. Just because I am in therapy does not mean I have no right to privacy. There are some things I prefer to keep private and that is okay. However, if it is something that is causing me problems and I am not talking about it because I don't want the therapist to know because then I might have to do something about it, well thats a little different. Do you think that maybe you are not telling your therapist because you don't want to quit?

I don't think anybody but you can determine if you really are having addiction issues. Yes, others can point out some problems and concerns, but you are the only one that knows what you are thinking and why you are taking drugs. It is a good idea that you are taking a look at your alcohol and drug use now. You don't have to be a raging alcoholic or shoot up on a daily basis to have addiction issues.

I am not a therapist or doctor or anything, so I can just share my thoughts as an recovering alcoholic and addict. If I was in your shoes, I would talk with my therapist because I would consider your type of drug/alcohol use to be a problem. Maybe you are not an addict, and I really hope you are not, but you are abusing drugs to escape and now you are even doing it on a daily basis. I think that type of drug/alcohol use can quickly escalate and get out of control.

I really hope you can be honest with yourself because right now you have an important decision to make and it could have a lasting impact on your life. You need to decide if continuing to abuse the drugs/alcohol is worth taking the risk of becoming an addict/alcoholic. It might be hard to give up the drugs and alcohol now, but I think the longer you use them, the harder it will be to quit.

When I quit, I had to develop new ways to deal with all the stuff that I was trying to escape from by using/drinking. I have found that facing my problems is the only way to make them go away. Because drugs/alcohol might give me a temporary escape, but the problems are still there when I sober up and the longer I run from them, the worse they get.

So, I hope you can take a good honest look at your life and make the best choice for yourself. What do you want out of life? Are the drugs helping you get that or are they holding you back?