I also repress emotions, emotions scare the **** out of me. The best way I have found to somewhat express myself is writing in my journal, it used to help relieve some of the pressure but for my own reasons I no longer journal. I once started to express some anger when telling my T a story from my childhood, she was blown away because I never show anything. Towards the end of the session I told T that I was scared that my mom knew I had expressed my anger and there would be a price to pay, for me it was a moment that really pieced together how I became an adult that couldn't express myself.