Gosh, I've totally been there before, and your right, it does suck. Fortunatly I found a way out of that place by putting in place a strategy that works for me. You must figure out what works specifically for you. What meds to take, the right support system...this is a good place to start with that, therapy always helps. I do know how frustrating it can be...feeling like you're some kind of leper to be avoided. Ppl can be very mean, but usually it's because they don't know how to handle it, they don't understand it. Perhaps you can change that, educate the ppl who are closest to you, if they are ppl that love you they will make an effort on your behalf. But you need to be patient with them...just as you are asking them to be patient with you.

I've never met you before so I don't really quite know how to respond to you in the most beneficial way. All I can really say to you is that from one bp to another, there is hope, things can work out for you and you don't have to be a victim of this illness. I hope you'll post more, I'll offer whatever I can to you. TgrsPurr.