Well, its been 10 days. I am slowly getting better with the being alone (I am amazing myself right now). Thursday was my husbands meeting with the judge, and it went as bad as it could go. He was sentenced to either $2,500 or 45 days in jail. I was a wreck that day, I had a panic attack once I left the courtroom and started hyperveltilating. At that point I didn't care it was happening, I was too upset to try and stop it. I had a deputy near me, and my husbands court appointed attorney. I appreciated that they stood by me. The court appointed attorney walked with me outside, and admitted to me that she once had surgery (not heart surgery like mine) but she had a surgery, and she had the feelings of anxiety (and even described some of the things non-panic/anxiety people would not know), so I knew right then that she knew what I was going through. It was amazing to know that someone with such a promising career admitted that to me. Well, they already set a date for hubby to be released, and that would be december 19th. That is less than 45 days, so that is already good, and hubby is now a trustee at the jail, to help work (mop and things like that), and there is a 'possibility' that he could be released sooner for good behavior/overcrowding of the jail. I just wanted to update everyone, and thank everyone that has said something, its all been very helpful.

Today though, I had a few palpitations, but it makes sense with the stress ive had to go through today. I visited hubby at jail (behind a glass wall though), that was all well and good but i had to have someone come and get me because my car alarm is not letting me start the car, so I get to have someone try and help me tomorrow. Now Im at home with no vehicle, oh joy. Anxiety is a little higher because of my car stressing me out, and because my phone got turned off for non payment, and i had to call them and make a payment (money supposed to go to the mortgage), just so i could call people to have someone to get me. UGH.