Hey Agony, and everyone else. I am a complete rookie for what my mind and emotions team up on me and do. Bipolar runs in my faily. Only 2 years ago, I have just realized, noticed and excepted that I am Bipolar too. I have 2 kids and a husband, 4 & 3 months old. For the last two years of my marriage I have been pretty hard to deal with. I have done and said things I regret, dearly. Some I should be ashamed of, or feel embarrassed that I did or said. Really. And I just recently contacted the Mental Health orgs in my area wanting to start treatment, litterally! I read you alls threads and I know I need to be medicated, and receiving Mental Health treatment in it's entirety. Everything you mention I have been experiencing. And atlease your family can kid of chuck it off to a bad day, missed MEDS or otherwise. So they are regularly relieved, as you , because your'e on MEDS and managing it. I feel like if I don't get MEDS soon, I may wear my husband out, split my family, all things I don't want to happen. I feel at the wits end or something, like it's about time to be treated. I realize, it's no joke. I'm gonna keep calling MH, because I need my referrel, I need this form of care in my life. I don't wanna be destructive in anyway. I'm up or down, never even my husband said a while back.

Wish me luck. Any advice from all is WELCOMED