i feel the same.
i have no excitement about life
i just want it to end
quickly
my existence is futile
life is worthless when u have depression
it robs you of everything worthwhile
i don't deserve it
you don't deserve it
we don't deserve it
but we have it
and its not fair
ten years of my life wasted away with this hell called illness
when is it going to end
i don't think it ever will
and i continue to just
EXIST...

i want to disappear forever