It's so hard to post and so painful to read my parts' writing. It's that somehow i expect someone to make it better and no one can. We're still so separated and no one can help.

This week we finally went back to t. after a 4 month absence to please our family. The session was so scary - i heard the differences in their voices and found out what my parts were thinking that i had no idea of.
i thought T would be afraid because it was so strange for one person to have so many people inside and most of them are suffering so much. We cried a half box of tissues worth, for so many different reasons and a part giggled uncontrolably. i really think that i can't get better, we're too separated. It's so confusing and hard to try to life with so much that i dislike about parts.

My h. was so angry that i went to t. It's so hard to have no comfort and never anyone who can make it better.
Can anyone relate? Is it hard for you to bear your parts and have to deal with rejection or worse- ignored or even agreement of others. Everything hurts when you are separated. Everything hurts when you have DID because we don't agree with what we say;(

and there is never anyone who can ever make it better
kerria