yes,yes,to ALL of you who posted.me too--for 36 yrs now.i want to die,i really do.i have for a long time now.i tried everything also--the meds,the therapy,ect.....my life is crap.i've lost friends,i had to tell my family to f off because they were treating me like crap.well,i'm "glad" in a way,that i'm not alone.i want so badly to be normal too !!!!! but i know now i never will be,not even close