I feel as though i was going down a dead end road and when i turned around there was a wall there. Trapped. Nowhere to go. What now? Down in the abyss with no light, cold and lonely. I had a glimmer of light for a day or two. But why did it leave again? Where did it go? Nothing different. Its been to long. Cant go on with this much pain. Its eating a hole inside.sorry, just rambling. Cant stop my head.