I need to do well in my classes, I need an internship. I constantly question my own intelligence, worry about what my grades on papers that have yet to be handed back. I feel inferior to others, I cannot find a job, I found an internship but that fell through. This anxiety, and uncertainty has left me with a general feeling of despair and a lack of control over my life in general. While I can make decisions of my own, what I will be allowed to do in my life is up to other people grading me or hiring me.