Thanks everyone!

I am still having the same feeling about it all, but I did call to get in to the mental health centre here. Unfortunately, it takes a long time to get into a doctor/pdoc. I do have a meeting with the intake counselor next week, and I kind of hope that when I explain it all to her she will understand the extent of this and speed things up for me. It has been going on for SO LONG, and I am just exhausted. Right now I am in the midst of a crappy depression- going into the third week, and I am just desperate for some help. I am so tired of getting this down. I am a preschool teacher and it is soo hard to fake happy for little kids!

As far as I can tell, I am basically depressed or 'flat' for most of fall/winter, but come spring I go kinda crazy. Granted, there are highs and lows in between, but just average days, it seems to follow that pattern. Right now though, it is tiring just to get my butt out of bed. So much so that I am very tempted to just quit work, even though it isn't an option money wise.

Sigh.