to you chrise-
I know I'm not the right person to be saying anything - spent the last 5 days crying over my "what-if's" and past relationships and not feeling all that great about where I'm at now. Don't know if it helps, but some of us have been where you're at and sometimes it seems like a long, long time before we can see the light at the top of the pit. Keep resolving to climb the ladders, keep taking one step at a time. You'll turn around and be surprised at how far you've come, but for now, keep taking life one step at a time...ok?
,
Einna
PS - sometimes you need to nibble at something - just don't quite eating altogether.