As long as i can remember, ive been worried about what my parents think and worried about upsetting them. like at age eight i was scared of throwing old clothes my mum'd given me incase she got upset and felt hurt.
i was afraid to tell them i didnt want to do ballet, or be christian.
basically i was too scared to live my life because i was just terrified of making them unhappy and not being good enough.
then about a year ago, some stuff happened at school; and i snapped.
i stopped wanting to be a doctor. i quit ballet. i stopped going to church. and not out of laziness, i was just genuinely unhappy.
now they think im a dissapointment. they think ive changed.
and now they act like they hate me, and i feel like im just in no way their favourite.
how can i show them that i havent changed, i just want to be myself?

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