I feel like i have been in this same spot for way too long. I keep posting and talking but im still in the same spot. I know people are gving me a hand or laders to climb out of the pit but just cant get out. Im doing everything i have to do. I look good on the outside. The kids are taken care of, house taken care of and everything looks great. I dont know what else to do. My head just wont stop. My heart is filled with despair and desperation. I need a way out. I need a light in the darkness. Im not hungry, having trouble sleeping and extremely irritable.it cant get any worse.