candy, i so understand. i can tell t things and swear he tears up and is shocked (and he's a trauma trained t). it shocks and bothers me to know that i don't shed a tear or show any emotion.

if i understand it right, it's because events, memories and feelings have all be compartmentalized...separately. memories separate from emotions even. it's a coping mechanism.

anyhow, alot of times i'll remember with no emotion. sometimes i have emotion and no memory...very RARELY do i have both at the same time.

i think that t's was right when he explained that they're stored in different places.

be safe and gl,

kd