These last 2 months for me have been a living nightmare. 2 deaths in this time period, the worst domestic life I've ever known- then removed from it and put into an environment with love but no structure or all-around support, slipping school marks, constant rapid cycling is just keeping me out of whack. where is my life going?!

I feel like I've been running in circles for the last little bit. I have nobody around to even talk to me, and when I get the opportunity to do so- nobody ever wants to hear it. They say they don't want to, or can't handle it, or it's "annoying."

Does that make ANY sense??!?!?! Do they think I can handle it either when I'm getting it first hand??!

I just don't understand where I'm supposed to go from here. I have a lot on my plate as of now and I have nobody around to help. My bipolar has gone completely haywire and it's just screwing me over. Nobody wants to hear me out- it's already hard for me to communicate with bipolar in the way, along with NPD and HPD. What can I do anymore?

I'm ready to give up. Maybe I should take a hiatus. Maybe this was just random ranting that people probably don't want to hear. Maybe maybe.