Im getting tired of hearing myself. But nothing is changing. I have been trying different things. Going for walks, listening to music, staying busy, anything to stay out of my head. I only see my social worker every 2-3 weeks. Im going through the motions. Thank you for all your ideas. It is helpful to know that im not alone. Sorry for repeating myself. But its just where im at. I just feel so cold, isolated,and dismal.as i sit all curled up in darkness and depths of the abyss.