I'm such a mess over this girl, I'm a guy and i've cried almost everynight... missing her, hell i'm crying as i write this. I know shes not the only one that i will lose in my lifetime, but i've never cared this much about anyone, I'd do anything for her, i told her i'd take a bullet for her and i would. I can't stop thinking about her, i haven't done any schoolwork in a week, i haven't done anything at work in a week, I don't even eat anymore, and when i do eat, i eat way too much. The least i want from our relationship right now is to be able to talk to her, an actual conversation, not like hey hows it goin kinda thing. I think i need to relax, i think maybe i need to get over her, i think i need someone to tell me what i need to do, because i don't know. I want her back in my life so bad, but i don't want to hurt her any more than i have.

Thanks for everyones help, sorry about the lack of capital "i's" I talk on msn alot.