There's too many things going through my head. This always seems to be how I feel lately. My mind starts spinning, thinking, and then I start doubting things. I get this jealousy rage and think everyone is hiding things just so they can turn around a hurt me. These thoughts have been getting worse. I do a decent job of hiding my feelings from my boyfriend. Sometimes I slip and it's too obvious. Then I feel like an idiot when I have to explain what I was just thinking about. I know the thoughts are stupid and I know he's being supportive, but it does help to talk them out.

I'm really good at hiding my thoughts in public. Well, I try to stay away from large crowds as it is. But when I go to work I have no problems and I work directly with the public. Then I come home and deal with reality, I get stressed.

Sometimes I think I have brain tumors and that's why I have the attacks that I have. Plus, being more introvert and having problems breathing in large crowds. None of this stuff ever bothered me before. About 12 years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression and was on meds. Which only helped me sleep. Haven't seen a doctor about any mental issues since then. Stress has been higher lately. Lost my job after 9 years. Job market sucks. My daughter is 3 so shes a handful and needs mommys attention. My mom just had surgery and needs me to drive her everywhere, ok I like driving, but now I worry about gas money. On top of the ever day life.